Again it has been a considerable while since I have been here and I am both bothered and refreshed by that reality; bothered because this space has meant a lot to me over the years and I hated to neglect it, but refreshed because I needed to take a break, some time away, in order to reset and heal.
The last two years have been challenging for me health wise, and while I am still deciding whether to share the details of that or not, suffice to say that I lost hope and felt like all I was doing was surviving - somehow getting through what I needed to do, wishing and hoping for a break from the pain, and then collapsing with exhaustion at the end of the day. It was not good. That being said, I am feeling much better now, consistently better than I have in years. And you know what? This is the first new year in a long time when I have felt like I can actually set some intentions, make some plans, and have a decent chance of achieving them without the fear that I am going to get blindsided and knocked on my ass, completely and utterly derailed. Such an improvement, and such a relief.
- Learn to knit.
- Crochet the flamingo from Edward's Menagerie Birds
- Read 15 books
- Adopt a consistent yoga practice
- Go for a hike at each Halton Conservation Area park
- Grow my repertoire of vegan baking recipes
- Pay off a portion of our mortgage
- Ice skate on the Rideau Canal in Ottawa
- Get consistent haircuts
- Create our San Francisco scrapbook
I may add some things to the list as the year goes on, as some things get checked off, but I feel like this is a good start - a good mix of fun, learning, health, self care, and productivity.
What are your intentions for 2019?