Again it has been a considerable while since I have been here and I am both bothered and refreshed by that reality; bothered because this space has meant a lot to me over the years and I hated to neglect it, but refreshed because I needed to take a break, some time away, in order to reset and heal.
The last two years have been challenging for me health wise, and while I am still deciding whether to share the details of that or not, suffice to say that I lost hope and felt like all I was doing was surviving - somehow getting through what I needed to do, wishing and hoping for a break from the pain, and then collapsing with exhaustion at the end of the day. It was not good. That being said, I am feeling much better now, consistently better than I have in years. And you know what? This is the first new year in a long time when I have felt like I can actually set some intentions, make some plans, and have a decent chance of achieving them without the fear that I am going to get blindsided and knocked on my ass, completely and utterly derailed. Such an improvement, and such a relief.
- Learn to knit.
- Crochet the flamingo from Edward's Menagerie Birds
- Read 15 books
- Adopt a consistent yoga practice
- Go for a hike at each Halton Conservation Area park
- Grow my repertoire of vegan baking recipes
- Pay off a portion of our mortgage
- Ice skate on the Rideau Canal in Ottawa
- Get consistent haircuts
- Create our San Francisco scrapbook
I may add some things to the list as the year goes on, as some things get checked off, but I feel like this is a good start - a good mix of fun, learning, health, self care, and productivity.
What are your intentions for 2019?
Hi Rachel, Sorry I haven't been about in blogland much myself but am slowly easing back in. It's staying committed to it that takes the time eg remembering to photograph things, editing and visiting etc. Not that it's a bind, it isn't but it is a commitment.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're feeling better, it sounds like you've put on a brave face for a very long time bless you. I'm 'still' seeing a dietician having suffered for years with food issues. It's the not knowing and guessing that I find so frustrating with no real improvement. I don't want to jinx anything but we may have found the issue this time, but... we've thought there many a time before. Anyway, I hope you are ok and continue to improve. It's so easy to lose heart when all seems lost or frustrating. Take care, Cathy x